I admit, my online journal here is impersonal. Unlike other more read-worthy blogs, I'm not really one to bare my soul in the vast vaccuum of cyberspace. It's kind of sad in a way, because I haven't kept a personal journal since 2003, and even then it was spotty. In some ways, my life would be more interesting to read about now. It is filled with a complexity I could not have foreseen in my younger days.

I mention this because I'm in the middle of a two-week hosting of friends from back east. Their presence here does give perspective and ease of being "myself", something I've had a hard time finding in Boulder. They are also exempt from my day-to-day blunders and the carelessness with which I've handled the fragile hearts of several friends out here. Soon they will return home.

The bigger picture is that there are aspects to my life I'm not giving proper attention, mostly examining my days with a more thoughtful and kind filter. I think in the coming weeks, I'll need to establish an outlet to purge some of the bad and recognize the good instead of floating through time, never quite fully functional in contrast to the person I was a few years back.

Posted by James Dziezynski @ 2:14 PM